full of pretenders

When I sit here feeling the most amazing feeling in the world, encompassed with breeze and full of love, there is no doubt that I made the right decision. But when Monday comes, is my world going to seem endless again?
Boiling over with questions of the future and affordability deepening itself. If I chase after a dream that I can't control then what is the use of optimism? The right we have to express who we are through the written and verbal word is one that not all others have. Just because I want to make money with that right doesn't mean I am not a true believer in a day's hard work. I want to express myself for you. And for me.
All I need is one more phone call from anyone willing to believe in my computer. And to believe in the person sitting in front of it. Then I promise I will dedicate myself to you. No matter the circumstance. As long as I can write and stay true to myself, I will be happy forever.